Gasp Its Nathalie ;D

I was so crazy in love with you
Yet you made me feel bad
though claimed to love me too.
So I gave you the right to completely change me
And now when I look
it’s not me that I see.
Who am I now I really don’t know
I’m so very sad
and always so low.
All those tears that fell from my eyes
For every single promise
that ended in lies.
For every night I tried to die
Grabbing the knife
But only able to cry.
Touching the blade against my arm
For every time you broke me
Causing so much harm.
Although you are gone, my feelings still remain
Not love and affection
More like death and pain